Here's your sign

My mom, dad, and I are taking a financial class on friday nights. To learn all that mumbo jumbo about finances that no one ever taught us. It seems like the world knows a lot more than we do and we could use the help. It's the Dave Ramsey course and if you don't know about it, I would look it up because their is some amazing info in it.
Well, because we are all at the meeting and Kenny is at work there is no one to watch Rhyanna, so we take her with us. No one seems to mind except on lady. I believe she is hard of hearing so Rhyanna's noise is distracting to her. The first week we were there she asked my father if we could find a babysitter to watch her. He made some joke about saving money and left it at that.
Apparently she didn't like the comment made by my father and took the issue to my mother the next week. My mother explained that after Mhairi died, I don't trust anyone to take Rhyanna. That I want to keep her as close to me as possible. She seemed to understand that, but every week now she will glare at me whenever Rhyanna makes a peep.
Today she seem particularly annoyed and so Grandpa took her out in the hall. After the class the Lady came and thanked me for taking her out of the class. This would be fine except that she wasn't making any noise just babbling here and their. Grandma got furious and tried explaining to the lady again why Rhyanna was in the class, but the lady just kept saying she was glad she wasn't. Finally the lady's husband apologized for her and when she went away he explained that she has hearing problems and that she probably didn't understand what mom had told her in the first place.
The point I'm trying to make is that sometimes stupidity comes from both parties involved. Often it's not just one but both. However it warmed my heart to see my mother get so heated for me and my daughter. She was trying to protected me and it really meant a lot. That's how we are as parents. No matter how long we have been out of the nest, our parents will protect us. I don't know what my little family would do with out them. They have helped us more than they will ever know.

A Mothers Day

I remember some years ago, shortly after my mission I attended church at my parents ward for mothers day. While there, I bumped into a young lady that I had once had the opportunity of baby sitting. After she had gotten older we had become good friends and I attended her wedding where I bore the teasing that she had gotten married before me. Now I sat behind her, still single, and watched as she rubbed her belly, large with child and her husbands arm around her shoulders.
My heart ached and as tears ran down my face I wondered in my heart if the time would ever come when I would know not only the love of a good man, but what it is like to feel a child grow within me. It seemed that every natural instinct in me long for these things. I whispered a silent prayer that someday I could fulfill this measure of my creation.
Four mother days would pass, each one filled with want and desire, before I met my Kenny. He filled my life with inexplicable joy and love. My first mothers day with him, I sat with his arm around me filled with the peace that one day I we celebrate with child in arms.
Last May, I became my childhood friend, I sat with husband by my side and not just one, but two wonderful little babies growing in my belly. I wept tears of joy and whispered a prayer of gratitude for such an amazing blessing. Looking forward to the next year when I would have my babies in arm.
I never would have believed that I would spend my first legitimate mothers day feeling the joy of having such a beautiful baby girl held close to my heart, and the sorrow of knowing that a little person was missing from our family circle. This year as a sat in picture perfection of husband mother and child, I whispered a prayer of gratitude for the Plan of Salvation and the knowledge that our family would be complete again. Not a day goes by that I don't think of our little Mhairi, I know she will always be part of us in this life. I am so grateful for Rhyanna and her beautiful excited smile that lights us my world and fills me with joy. I never knew you could love this much.

Angels

There have been several people who have asked me to keep my blog going. Moved I'm sure by the one entry I have. I hesitate because I don't share freely but know that it's fun and exciting to know the "latest" in our friends lives.

It's been four and a half months since our little Mhairi Ahnna went back to heaven. Which means she has been gone longer than we had her. We are at peace with her passing and understand that God's vision is much broader than ours. She has a special mission no doubt and we pray for her success each night. We had her for a moment and we will love her for a lifetime.

Rhyanna has been our joy and happiness. Her beautiful little smile warms anyone's heart. She is calm and happy and loves her family. Everyone comments on how wonderful she is and what a good baby she is. We love her, love her, love her!

She is doing so well developmentally. She is right on track. She loves her saucer and dance with her mommy to the music. She is so happy when her daddy is home and just as the primary song says, she "clasps her hands upon his cheeks." I think she likes to feel his scruffy face because then she knows it's dad!

Kenny is my man and I could not do what I do without him. I don't think anyone could love their spouse as much as I love mine.

Well if the blogs continue, you will have to be patient with the spelling, because well...I can't. But sound it out and you'll get the gist.